Second child.

  I think every mom has the fear that they won't love their second child as much as their first. I know I struggled with the thought. I was more worried about Adalee and how she would transition. The first time I held Adalee I didn't have an immediate connection.. That might have to do with pushing for 2 1/2 hours and being so emotionally and physically drained I was just thankful it was over. I do remember when I did feel that connection with her and it made everything so worth it. This time my labor was so fast and I only had to push 3 times so the moment they put the baby on my chest I had that deep connection that I had been waiting for.  I was so in love with this little man and all I could think about was Adalee coming to meet him. I longed for the moment when Adalee would run into the room and kiss her little brother and fall in love like we had. Yea it didn't happen like that. We had her come the next day because I had the baby at 8:30 the night before. I started crying before she came in because I missed her so much. Eldon got her a meal from Wendy's and she got a new train toy. She was excited to show us her train and show us  that Eldon was there. When we asked her if she wanted to see Taysom she really had no interest. She did come and give me a hug eventually which was nice. We didn't really push her to see him. Braxton was holding him and she eventually walked over and looked at him and sat next to Braxton but wouldnt touch him. The moment was nothing like how I dreamed it would be but I was still so happy. She didn't stay long because she wanted to just go home so they did.
  Once we brought him home though she loved on him and hasn't stopped since. She loves to hold him before bed. She always makes sure to tell us when he is poopy. She hasn't complained about his crying which I was sure she would. She will help put his binky in his mouth by shoving it in there as hard as she can. She also will try to wrap him up in his blanket and when I put him on the floor for tummy time she will play with him. I knew she would be an awesome big sister and I am so grateful for that. They are the best!